Okay, I am doing something I never do. I am making a decision that pleases no one but myself. I am ignoring a personal obligation (which involved 2 days of travel and no time or room to work) to do something that is good for me (staying home alone to write on 2 major projects with impending deadlines).
I normally try to juggle everything and make myself a little crazy. I hate to disappoint anyone.
The gf is being so supportive, I am moved by her generosity of spirit and once again pleased that she is my partner.
Contrary to how you might imagine I feel--strong, independent, feminist lesbian that I am--I am actually feeling embarrassed and a little like a bad person. I know that is crazy, so I am both feeling these emotions and telling myself that it is okay.
Who knows? If it goes okay, perhaps I will actually make decisions that are good for me more often.